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The important posts here will be friends only for the foreseeable future (Some special posts will continue to be made available to everyone, though.) ...Not trying to hate on folks; just trying to protect some semblance of privacy here - for myself and for the other cool individuals who interact here (I know you're out there...)
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19 months of a pandemic shitshow, and I am exhausted.

I'm exhausted that so-called "adults" are running around butthurt because someone with some degree of intelligence and/or empathy asked them to think of - PEARLS CLUTCHED!! - other human beings.

I'm exhausted at a society that only seems fit to function as if quotes are supposed to be around the word "adult" because however it was in high school felt better than now. You're not in high school anymore, honey, so...

I'm exhausted at the endless strings of grief that I have to try to keep at bay because I haven't seen blood family except through screens and blogs since 2018 (at my mother's funeral. An aunt and my oldest sister have passed since then, both - blessedly - before COVID landed, but missing that not thinking that it'd be this long afterward before I could commiserate in person with my people safely is a lot.)

I'm exhausted because all of this work-from-homeness has me and others who work in I.T. support butting heads with PTSD on the regular (These still aren't calls I expect to get cussed out during, but it happens a good deal now.).
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I figured a little vacation (sun and lazy time and all that) would help snap me out of the mess after a recent (6 weeks ago) server upgrade. One problem with that is that the server cleanup is still very much an active thing after 6 weeks, and the pointman role is apparently still not my strong suit.

Also, the nagging feeling that I've vastly overstayed my welcome at my job is rising in me again, and wants to be heard out (and the suddenly increasing number of cold calls and emails from recruiters for no visible reason isn't helping matters there!). Do I still have a next chapter in me at 49, after 17 years at the same gig?
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Calling your ISP's help desk with a WinXP in 2019.... I almost laughed at this dude (and would've kept laughing for at least an entire minute!)!!
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I don't wanna be the adult in the room!!
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I don't like waking up in the morning with my middle fingers cocked and loaded. It affects too much of the rest of the day.
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Everyone's getting high-maintenance around me all of a sudden. I'd rather just be high.
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The rest of social media is going to break me if I don't take a break at some point.
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My sleep stops in 2018...

Madison, WI
Gays Mills, WI
Milwaukee, WI
Katona, SD
Bozeman, MT
Sagle, ID
Shelton, WA
Vancouver, BC
Salt Spring Island, BC
Seattle, WA
Oacoma, SD
Brooklyn, NY
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Funerals during the holiday season would be an unacceptable new normal.
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I could've done without today so far.
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The merging of the marital cellphone plans is nigh. There's a reason this took us 3 years into marriage to do this.
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I need some more Goodbyes to actually stay gone (and maybe just as many Hellos to stay a while longer).
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That feeling when you get reminded how much of your particular corner of the world could rival Florida for the "God's Waiting Room" crown...
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The presence of dementia makes you grieve for some people earlier than you're supposed to.

(BACKGROUND: My sister Magen called me last night, reporting that our mother is in the hospital with a not-insignificant infection - basically bedsores cleaned up to the extent that my sisters could do, but things got missed, and the odor was lingering. Magen also hinted that, although things don't appear necessarily grave, that I should consider an October trip to New York. I and my wallet both winced.)

I'm a little bummed (again, but this has been the 800-pound gorilla in my life for the last few years, so that's just par for the course.), needless to say.
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Vacation me is just as issues as regular me, but on vacation I can take more naps.
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I love that feeling when that my free moments at work this week were spent binge-watching (CENSORED) at my desk via Netflix.
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It's too grey and cool to be Labor Day weekend.
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Midlife crisis is now officially under way!
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First oil change with the new car today... Painless.

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